hvad kan du fortale om reolen?

christian, i know you don't read this but i hope i got that correct for the sake of your attempt and patience in teaching me this language.

sure, being able to study abroad means that you get to travel.. and i'm not arguing against the fact that it has its perks. i'm coming to believe that i think i'm more into the culture and essentially, the danish way of living. i've met so many internationals here whose intentions are focused on getting trashed, hooking up (READ: being unfaithful), and then getting more trashed. i won't lie and say that i haven't entertained that idea.. but i will also be honest and say that's not why i'm here. i can meet americans in denmark. i can hang out with americans in denmark. however, i didn't come to denmark to meet americans (i think i've made it clear on that one.. somehow.. and i only have one good american friend. two maybe). just as how i can't possibly get shitfaced everynight when it's not a big pasttime/priority of mine back in the states.

i'm not sure where i'm getting with this. keep in mind that the clock just hit 4 a.m. it irks me when students come "abroad" just to mingle with people from their respective countries. that's.. not the point? there's the comfort zone, i guess. maybe it's easier for me in this aspect considering i don't particularly feel entirely comfortable anywhere? it's really odd/amazing/interesting that i am getting SO much more comfortable with my dormmates. i've always had trouble making friends in my life, and somehow it's more laidback for me here. like.. i'd have conversations with my hallmates that i wouldn't have had in a VERY long period of time had i been in california. it's refreshing, really. fuck, there's none of that meaningless surface conversation. these are conversation pieces i can reflect upon later. am i rambling? i'm rambling. i don't know what my point is anymore.

oh right, my point: i consider myself very, very lucky to be housed in such a wonderful environment. it's not because i'm in a student dormitory (the dynamics of dorm life is much, much different here. maybe i'll get into that later?); it's rather the fact that everyone is so extremely warm and welcoming. and patient. and accomodating. and everything that is nice. i just love life, i guess. it's 4:07. apparently it's also a good time to sound beyond lame.. but it's true. i want to immerse myself in this culture. i want to learn (atleast some of) the language. i could easily breeze through the next few months by speaking nothing but english, but i want to do more than order chocolate cake in danish! i want to be able to understand the jokes passed around, and i don't want a thorough translation of a conversation that was had two days ago. it's very exciting that i have this opportunity, and i'm going to milk it for all it's worth. i was afraid of extending because of the time + money factor. initially, i was trying to justify this by telling myself, "oh, christina, how many times in your life are you going to be in europe? it's not uncommon to graduate in 5 years nowadays." i'm looking at time in a different perspective: there's simply not enough time in one semester to take everything in. i can't believe that december is in three months. three. everything in the books can be postponed; the material will always be in the books. but life? no, right now. october 1st is approaching fast.

4:23.

ps- i'm cooking for everyone this sunday! right, my reaction exactly: "WTFOMG WHAT DO I DO?!"
pps- tomorrow! i'm going to see if i can land some volunteer work in tutoring english. and i cannot cannot wait until rasmus' birthday on friday! supposedly it's the "traditional" way to do it...